…It doesn’t get any easier or better.
It isn’t pain no more but complete numbness. Only if I had ignored the heart, remained arrogant and narcissistic, maybe – just maybe – I’d remain sane.
Nothing further to say…
Okay, so maybe I was in two minds up until now, especially after my last post ‘the chronicles between Simren and I’. Soon after publishing the last post, I had decided with warranted reasons I must add, that I wouldn’t write or blog about it anymore. All, what I had written so far about Simren and I, was done with great pain and sting. What I had written, the candor expressed, although anonymously and arcane, still did make me nervous and for many reasons. My decision was made.
Now, somehow and in someway, my personal experience and in general the ‘happenings’ between Simren and I, has attracted attention. Thanks to my followers and readers and to their perusal, who contacted me either via my blog or email, encouraged me to continue, admittedly taken back by the response. Continue in sharing the episodes between us, and I am somewhat persuaded in making every effort, more than ever and with more determination to keep you guys in touch with it all, and where I find myself unable to repudiate.
This type of attention and determination brings me back to my days at boarding school somewhere in Berkshire. It was there, at the tender age of 13, a nervous and truculent British Asian boy with a wanton attitude entered an intimidating environment, which later shaped his character to what he is today. I guess a dedicated blog post about this is on the horizon. It was there, in that very boarding school that salient preference was given to writing, and handwriting in particular – irrelevant of who you were, which family you belonged to, which internal house you were in, and what great things you may be aligned to do where the history of this boarding school was hard to ignore. We were encouraged to write, not type, despite every student been given a laptop, and write anything and about everything. It was a way of expressing, letting out the demons, capturing what needed to be said on a fresh piece of paper, neatly bound together to form a navy blue hardback writing book – where each new page screamed out for my imagination, feelings and thoughts, helped by the creepy, suspicious harry potter type of dark and cold environment.
From the many years I spent in that environment, as my age ticket by so did the habit of writing. Writing, before long, became normal but a method to free yourself of all the anger, hate, reservations, confusion and reasons why you just didn’t want to be there, away from family and away from your real world.
Since then, till now, the only visible change is the replacement of that navy blue hardback writing book to this blog. Then, whatever was written wasn’t for the public domain, but today it is. although written anonymously.
If you have had the pleasure of reading about me, you will notice a strong dedication of learning, of educating beyond aberration or expectations of many. That’s right, I continue to educate myself in many forms. This can only be achieved by writing and reading. Both writing and reading compliment each other and go hand in hand. In my case, writing helps me make sense of things, a kind of birds eye view of things, which otherwise is simply impossible. As far as my situation with Simren is concerned – meticulous writing about it – as and how it is – helps me understand the entire situation, a sort of roadmap with a birds eye view – on what the terrain looks like, and, what I am taking on no matter how lurid or modicum it is.
Considering the above, I will now make every effort to post regularly about our story – exactly as it happens and unfolds, even if it is morose. I envisage to post once every two weeks the very least and without word limit restrictions. This is in addition to writing about everything else surrounding British Asians.
Yes, I may piss some of you off, I may also annoy some of you by the methods I adopt to achieve the desired result – I may even encourage some of you in your fight for that right person, a sort of panacea if you like. I may give courage to others that it is worth every effort. I may even provide you with some entertainment and repartee – albeit at my own expense..
So, on that note, Que le jeu commence…
Yesterday, I had the pleasure of watching Abbas Tyrewala’s Bollywood movie ‘Jhootha Hi Sahi’. Released October 2010.
I couldn’t help thinking, much of this movie is aimed towards University students, graduates or early adulthood and getting to know society and relationships.
What attracted me to watch this movie over other options was that it’s rare to find a movie which is based around British Asians, living a typical life, typical routine and typical humour amongst friends.
The first scene of the movie is indeed a very funny and hilarious one. John Abraham playing Siddharth Arya has fallen asleep on the sofa while watching TV (Typical bachelor) who receives a call from someone who is about to commit suicide. Siddharth thinking it’s a one off manages to talk the person out of it. Few moments later another phone call from a different person with the same intention arousing his suspicions that this is a joke and a prank and responds to the person sarcastically. Later he is made aware that his home number by mistake was printed on a Asian suicide helpline posters and leaflets that had been circulated.
Midways through the movie, I couldn’t help thinking that this movie was trying to imitate popular television series Friends. A bunch of friend, all of them fond with each other, free and open with mixed relationships. There are other characters such as a Pakistan brother and Sister living together, the sister is pregnant and is seeing a Chinese, while the brother is constantly engaged in fighting with Siddharth’s girl friend.
The movie is embarrassingly hilarious, with some scenes simply side splitting. What really works well in this movie, is the constant piss take of each other and the situations they are in. Something which is typical in everyday life.
Soon as Siddharth agrees to become a volunteer after having his home number accidental printed on Asian suicide promotion material, he happens to meet a lone voice of a girl called Mishka (Pakhi), who simply calls him but never utters a word in the first call. Surprisingly, Sid (Siddharth) manages to recognise her silence and bring her to talk with him. They become good phone friends and Sid never tells her who he is over the phone. They then meet each other in real life, Mishka unaware that he is the person on the phone, whom she has named Siddhartho. Sid lives two lives, playing a helper to her trouble life over the phone and being a friend in her real life. What makes Sid appear to be two different people to Mishka is the fact that Sid has a problem in that when he is with beautiful women he stutters and when on the phone his words flow naturally.
On the acting front, John was good and managed to balance the funny side of his character and his serious side successfully. Pakhi on the other hand appeared to be a little mature, a little old for her role – but I’m not sure if this was intended or not. But the chemistry worked well between them both. The chemistry between the friends was hilarious at the beginning but slowly turns to some serious scenes.
The movie overall (for me) is different to the regular stuff we get from Bollywood. As a British Asian much of what the friends go through is something we would have experienced in real life. What makes the movie enjoyable is the side splitting scenes which are executed fantastically well.
One song for me which stood out the most was by A. R Rahman called ‘I’m thinking of you’ which I have added a video below. If it sinks into your mind and you find yourself humming it throughout the day, then please don’t blame me.
Because, the movie is different, and is made in our home ground – it makes it more believable and realistic. If the scenes were set in any other country, I’m not sure if this movie would have had the same impact on me.
Overall I would rate this movie as 8 out of 10. A high score simply because it’s more appealing to me being a British Asian
Back in September I wrote about an upcoming Bollywood movie called FORCE. That post was written prior to the movie being released. Unfortunately I never got around to watching the movie in Cinema – due to a busy lifestyle, but as I mentioned then that once I had watched the movie – I’d share my views and opinions around the movie – well a little late but here I present to you my brief review.
Prior to the movie being released, speculation had it that this movie was a remake of a Tamil movie called Khakha Khakha. Although, I’m not sure at the time whether the speculation was true or not, or if it actually mattered at all, but I don’t think anything was taken away from Force movie.
The movie was directed by Nishikant Kamat, who directed Mumbia Meri Jaan. I’d like to give him credit, since he kept the movie alive and interesting throughout. There seemed to be a good balance between art and violence, between a love story and creativity. Force to me appeared to be a commercial movie and stood strong in all aspects.
John Abraham, I believe executed his role really well in this movie. At times, when watching the movie, you can’t help thinking that John was emotionless or performed poor in different scenarios but as the movie goes on you understand that John’s character is one of a machine. A guy, who takes no crap, has no feelings or emotions and he is dedicated in doing one thing – do his duty well and provide justice – be it the hard way if it works.
The female character, Genelia D’Souza seemed a little disappointing. As always, she appeared to be childish, immature and at time poor at showing a serious side. To me she seemed to be a lonely character, without her own life style. If this movie was a spring board for her, to launch herself as a serious character and setting a bench mark, then I’m afraid she failed to achieve this.
What made the movie interesting throughout was the combination of choreography and cinematography. The blend was good and kept the movie watchable throughout.
The story line was not fantastic but would qualify as good story. It was slightly straight forward without any twists, Movies like Gajani and Wanted all seemed to be in to surprise the audience but with FORCE movie the acting and seriousness of John lead role was enough to make one believe that the movie didn’t need a twist to keep people excited or entertained. The romance or love story within Force was not big, but appeared to be a casual part of the movie. Some movies like Gajani, seemed to be based around love stories and tend to keep the love part alive throughout. Force was a little different, in the sense that a point was made that love can overcome anyone no matter how stone hearted they might be – but the ultimate focus of this movie was to bring in a gang and provide justice the hard way.
After watching the movie, you will understand how hard John has worked on his physique and on his acting to remain a stone hearted person who knows just one thing – to do his job well.
Overall I would rate this movie a good 6.5 out of 10.
30 September we will be seeing the release of the Bollywood Movie FORCE. Starring John Abraham (whose recent movies were Dostana, New York) and Genelia D’Souza (whose recent movie was Life Partner) is a 20th Century Fox’s contemporary action-romance movie.
What makes this movie a must watch is the performance of John Abraham, who’s last movie as the main actor was New York 2009, but later made odd appearances in movies including ‘7 Khoon Maaf’ early 2011. I believe when an actor or actress returns after a big gap in their career they have no choice but to perform 100% to make it a success. John Abraham finds himself in that position in Force.
Story Line (in a nutshell): Sanjay Singh (John Abraham) is a no-nonsense cop, who is insistent pursuit of a ruthless underworld network. His belief is firmly set in eradicating crime by simply shooting the criminals dead and not arresting them.
Physical Body: For this movie, John Abraham admitted that he underwent eight months of physical training to achieve not a six-pack but an eight-pack physique. This achievement attracted the attention of Hollywood stunt director JJ Perry (who has trained Hollywood stars such as Sylvester Stallone, etc) who is said to be “extremely impressed” by John and wants to work with him.
“Making a strong body is like a religion. When you preach a religion you go to a temple. I go to a gym and workout. I really worked out hard to make a strong body. I had put on 10 kilo muscles in eight months.” John told the media. The movie FORCE it was required that John sported a muscular look.
Controversy: Controversy broke out for the film, in a scene where John and Genelia had to tie knot. However, sources claim that the ceremony conducted was so authentic that had they completed the last round they would have actually been man and wife. The priest used for the scene was a real pandit and not a junior artist who read out the actual wedding mantra as he said he had forgot that the camera was rolling. Again, following the reports of Ritesh Deshmukh and Genelia’s marriage plans, the priest insisted that the couple couldn’t get married as Genelia is already married to John as everything was done from wearing a mangalsutra, to exchanging garlands and taking the saat pheras. He also said he wish to meet the onscreen couple and make them understand that he had pronounced the mantras one does at a real wedding.
FORCE Film Songs:
1. Khwabon Khwabon – K.K. & Suchitra
2. Chahoon Bhi – Karthik & Bombay Jayshree
3. Dum Hai To Aaja – Mahua Kamat
4. Main Chali – Naresh Iyer & Shreya Ghoshal
5. Dil Ki Hai Tamanna – Vijay Prakash, Shalini Singh & Neha Bhasin
I am personally looking forward to 30 September when this movie is released, as John Abraham is one of those actors who simply produces a good balance between acting and realism.
I will indeed share my views here once I have seen this movie. If any of you are planning on watching this movie then I hope you can share your thoughts here too.
FORCE Bollywood Trailer